OokamiAnei's Lifeisodes

Un-perfection is key

ookamianei — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 08:33:11 +0000

Recently, I’ve been thinking about how wrong I have been doing things in my life. Oddly enough, it actually started by thinking about video games. When I play video games I rarely get myself to finish them because in the end I strive for perfection in the things I actually do. Which I guess is why I rarely do things. Using Final Fantasy 7 as an example, I didn’t beat this game until 3 years later after I had started the game. I had decided to restart the game multiple times to strive for “the perfect game” which turned out to be the problem and the true root of my problems. Translating this into my real life it all makes perfect since. Whenever I have gone to school or tried to do anything I always try to do it perfectly by reading every line, never following the study skills I’ve been taught. Usually, I was told that I should use the study guides or notes to decide what to focus on the most. I would always try to memorize everything about the class without focusing on the things that my instructors told me mattered. The problem with this surfaces when I get about halfway to three fourths of the way through the quarter and fall behind. If I take a different approach will it all change? Will I be able to finish the classes? We shall see.

Until I get back into school however, which should be pretty soon, I have decided to practice a new approach at life, starting with what I do the most. Playing video games. From now on I plan on just playing through the story-line without trying to do every side-quest and kill every extra boss. This stuff I will save for the second play through. Hopefully, if I can get myself to follow this strategy in something like games I will also be able to follow it in school and life.

Chocobalism

ookamianei — Sat, 16 Aug 2008 19:04:22 +0000

Last night I was watching tv downstairs at my in-laws apartment and saw the strangest thing. A new M&M commercial that involved the green M&M eating little bits of chocolate. In my mind I translated that into a weird image. A human female trying to be sexy while eating many many pieces of human laying about the floor. Cause in a sense, thats what’s happening. Think about it, she’s made of chocolate and eating little bits of her fellow chocolate people spread out across the floor. I’m sure not many people think about it this way, but next time you are watching tv try to actually pay attention to what these advertisements are feeding to you. I’m sure its unknown to them what they are actually showing you, but sometimes I see oddities in the way they present things. Like in this case where I see an M&M eating her own kind while trying to appear sexy. Or maybe I’m wrong and they really do know what they are doing and are appealing to the inner cannibal in all of us from the recesses of our gene pool and ancient ancestors. Who knows?

Writing Soul

ookamianei — Fri, 15 Aug 2008 07:08:54 +0000

So deep down I love writing for many reasons. It’s the only place that I can actually be myself and express what the inner me is like. To me it doesn’t really matter what you are, from the CEO of a company to a trash pickup guy. It really doesn’t matter. Who knows that low end job could hide the next einstein, Heath Ledger, or Steven King. I feel that I have wasted my time wondering what I could have been, stuck in my dead end job. It’s time to look forward and just try to do what I want to do. Oddly enough, Robyn’s friend Christina really made this hit home. Even though I’ve been trying to change over the past few weeks, and actually succeeding, it didn’t really hit home until she talked about just doing it. Can’t succeed unless you try, a phrase commonly used, but only payed attention to if your actually listening.

I probably could have made it a lot farther if I had just stopped caring about petty things like what my next level 70 should be, what if my writing is not good enough, what if my story idea sucks, what if I don’t know enough about what I’m writing. I say to these, Fuck It, I’m just gonna write it. If I don’t know enough I’ll write it anyway and just go back and fix it. Thats always been my problem, I never thought about the second draft. I’ve always pushed back writing that first big novel because I wanted to keep reading until I was an expert in everything that could possibly happen in the story.

So from this day forth I write to enjoy. I have chosen my path. I will write as a hobby. I will act as a hobby. And if anything good comes out of it, great. If not meh I had fun.

Peace.

Health Infection

ookamianei — Thu, 14 Aug 2008 07:30:19 +0000

I usually hate talking about the same type of thing two posts in a row, but I thought this would add to the humor of the previous day. So today… we got a health inspector… warning… that he would be coming… maybe.

Suffice to say, he did not ever show up. But this is the perfect opportunity to comment about human behavior again. So for those of you who have not heard, A Burger King in Ohio had a very strange incident. So here is a video to get you in the mood.

So now that you know the background. A health inspector was dispatched today to a Burger King in our district. And as I heard the phone ring I witnessed an extreme change.

For the whole day the manager had been relaxed and just chilling in the front of the restaurant talking about school and her beliefs. *The phone call*

slowly throughout the day she started to get really irritable and kept passing out odd jobs. But the true nature of this worry came into being when it started to spread like an infection. People just started going nuts throughout the restaurant.

My deduction, people are tools. I don’t know why this shit wasn’t getting done in the first place. I don’t think people realize that if you all do a little bit of cleaning every day, you don’t have to worry about these… crammed elbow grease sessions that I hate so much. I would rather spend about thirty minutes cleaning every day than 4 hours of everyone scrubbing till they drop while listening to your manager yell at you for everything.

Anyways, I hope at least the video gets you cracking, I know i was laughing my ass off.

*Disclaimer: The opinions posted in the above blog do not represent the opinion of Burger King.*

First Boss Encounter

ookamianei — Wed, 13 Aug 2008 07:55:48 +0000

So today I was blessed with the opportunity to meet one of the “higher ups” in Burger King. This experience was about the same as every other… district manager encounter that I’ve ever experienced. It began with me walking into work and not knowing what was going on. Walking behind the counter, clocking in, and then BAM! DOTHISDOTHATDOTHISDOTHAT! Like a fucking hurricane, you have no clue what’s going on. Then the manager runs around like she’s having a seizure and yells at everyone. Then I realized someone high up must be coming.

Analyzing this I wonder why people react like this. You can only try your hardest and you are more likely to mess it all up when you freak out. The guy coming to visit is just another person doing his job. He has to eat, sleep, shit, and go home to his family the same as anyone else. He’s just a person. Unfortunately, I am an empath so I feel what people around me feel and I am susceptible to their moods. So at this point I’m angry, worried, disconcerted, hopeless, lost and curious all at the same time which is very confusing. Suffice to say it was a very fun day at work.

Alternately I was able to come home and… damn… not much. Well work was amusing, I got to see my manager do the nervous boss dance.

Sidelife

ookamianei — Tue, 12 Aug 2008 07:37:06 +0000

So as a way to start up with that whole “writing thing” Henrii and I have decided to start a few side-projects to get ourselves active again. Basically we are going to create a whole bunch of blogs about random crap that interests us and go with it. Good luck and godspeed if you stick with us.

But seriously here are two:

Ookamidia – in the form of letters we are going to talk about and review anything that is in the media. Books, Movies, Games, etc. Comments are welcome. Hopefully we can get some interesting topics going on there.

Yet to be named weird poem project thingy – Basically Henrii came to me with this idea of getting people together to write poetry together. There is a japanese form of poetry called renga that I guess a compilation of people’s poem segments. If you are interested in joining up let me know because after we get it going we want to bring more people in. He says that there are some that get up to 1,000 stanza’s. You can learn how to write Renga at this link.

Eventually I would like to get a short story writing project/writing club going. A book club would be kind of nice.

Sleepy Time

Outside the norm

ookamianei — Mon, 11 Aug 2008 04:19:06 +0000

So I just got back from downstairs in my In-Laws apartment and had the weirdest realization whilst eating pork chops, green beans, and some delicious rice stuff. Robyn and I are definitely not normal. Most people have their romantic moments during the start of their relationship, specifically when the proposal occurs. Our relationship is much different in my opinion. We didn’t ever even discuss marriage really, it was just an accepted fact, an eventuality.

We chose our date pretty much because it was a financially good decision, one of the first ones we have ever made. But do I regret this? Not really, I’m actually quite proud. I am glad that I can be so direct with her. To me relationships that are based off of sweet lies that eventually explode are stupid. I prefer our relationship much better with the exploding occurring daily, if not hourly. I can understand how this could be construed as a bad thing but we will live a long healthy life because we don’t let things fester and boil underneath the skin of our soul. We get it out as soon as it bothers us, we are direct, we are truthful with our feelings. I feel that this is a good thing, we argued like a married couple when we were just dating. We argue like my mom and dad used to when we are just a year in. Does this mean that we might eventually reach that point where we just aren’t angry anymore? Or will it be something different. I guess we will find out in time.

Though I like to believe that we will just stop being angry and work as a very psychically linked team.

I love her with all my heart.

Famously seen or Famously unseen

ookamianei — Sun, 10 Aug 2008 20:25:12 +0000

So I’ve had a lot of conflict in my brain about what I want to do for the rest of my life. But I finally have it down to 2 things. Either I want to act or I want to write.

Acting:

I want to get into acting because I honestly enjoyed it when I was younger. The feel of everyone watching you in awe. The praise afterwards really stroking your ego. It sounds bad but I loved meeting the people, working with them, playing at being someone else. It’s really like living a book. Sometimes It felt like taking a step further into my obsession with reading. Like instead of just mentally being the character people would watch you be the character and lose themselves.

I want to be famously seen and be someones dream.

Writing:

The other thing I’m interested in doing is writing. Writing is the more hidden form of being famous. If I get published i get to help people run wild with their imaginations and take on persona’s you can never be in the drudgeries of real life. I love writing when I actually do, but like everything the problem is starting. I can never actually get myself to sit down and write. I could be playing a game or watching tv. But I love the lure of writing because i can take my inner creativity and share it with the world. Causing them to step into my head but never know me, just the stories I weave.

I want to be famously unseen and create dreams.

All in all I really just need to get into both of them and see which one I actually want to do, if not both. But before I can tackle both I need to actually tackle one of them. But yet again… the problem is starting.

It’s always starting.

Re-re-restart

ookamianei — Sun, 10 Aug 2008 06:41:20 +0000

So I went to visit my uncle Craige a day ago and yet again he encouraged me to start back my old habit of reading a book a day. Every time I get to visit with him I remember how much I love reading non-fiction. I always fall out of it though. I play World of Warcraft, I go to work, I sleep, I play WoW again. It’s just so… boring. Today I decided to just stay downstairs at Nancy’s apartment and read on the couch with Robyn. Sadly the only reason I did this was because I knew that if I went back upstairs I would just sit down and play WoW.

So in an effort to make myself feel less pathetic, I have promised myself that I’m going to start reading more. I’m actually off to a really good start, I’ve started the book my uncle lent me and have gotten pretty far. When I’m done I’m gonna write a review and summary. Which is another part of my goal; writing more.

But anyways, time to go for now. I shall post more tomorrow.

Gaming Addiction: Episode 2

ookamianei — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 20:05:13 +0000

So I’ve been reading and watching a lot of the E3 footage over the past two days and I must say I’m kind of excited about the new stuff comming out. Playstation 3 will finally be releasing their playstation home program, which I will love greatly. I like the idea of making an avatar that I can run around and meet people with. Along with that the full trailer of final fantasy 13 is now out… no release date though. That kinda sucks.

And so many games are porting over to the xbox 360 or wii. Oh well, Ive already decided I need to buy a 360 anyway because of Lost Odyssey. But I’m still happey with my playstation 3, there are some very good games comming out for it later. Anyways back to hanging out and such. I’ll post later.