So I’ve had a lot of conflict in my brain about what I want to do for the rest of my life. But I finally have it down to 2 things. Either I want to act or I want to write.
Acting:
I want to get into acting because I honestly enjoyed it when I was younger. The feel of everyone watching you in awe. The praise afterwards really stroking your ego. It sounds bad but I loved meeting the people, working with them, playing at being someone else. It’s really like living a book. Sometimes It felt like taking a step further into my obsession with reading. Like instead of just mentally being the character people would watch you be the character and lose themselves.
I want to be famously seen and be someones dream.
Writing:
The other thing I’m interested in doing is writing. Writing is the more hidden form of being famous. If I get published i get to help people run wild with their imaginations and take on persona’s you can never be in the drudgeries of real life. I love writing when I actually do, but like everything the problem is starting. I can never actually get myself to sit down and write. I could be playing a game or watching tv. But I love the lure of writing because i can take my inner creativity and share it with the world. Causing them to step into my head but never know me, just the stories I weave.
I want to be famously unseen and create dreams.
All in all I really just need to get into both of them and see which one I actually want to do, if not both. But before I can tackle both I need to actually tackle one of them. But yet again… the problem is starting.
It’s always starting.
